“The reverberations of Kurt’s suicide last to this day, and have touched the lives of many. Dozens of people could have written their own version of this bracingly candid book; Eric Erlandson has written one, filled with rage and love, landmined with detail, that can stand for them all.”
–Michael Azerrad, Come as You Are and Our Band Could Be Your Life
“Eric was the spirit-boy in the Nirvana/Hole dynamic. Quiet, bemused, intelligent and curiously intuitive to the power of hugging the devil, to say we will all be ok. The early 1990s were an explosive and defining period of creativity and excitement for the underground punk/post-punk scene, particularly with the manifest poetry of Kurt, who we were so proud to have as a light in our shared time and space. To express how enchanting he was, how the whole scene was, is something Eric expresses in his thoughtful, radical adult prose/love. Bring on the future, darling. –Thurston Moore, Sonic Youth
Hey Guys, if you’re interested in Hole, Nirvana, suicide, fame, food, sex, agony, consumerism, rock and roll, poetry and the savage gods, you might like Eric Erlandson’s first book, Letters to Kurt. Fifty prose poems that are raw, naked, and fully clothed. Former lead guitarist of Hole, Eric Erlandson’s new book is on limited offer with the chapbook of ephemera, Cock Soup. Check it out: http://www.akashicbooks.com/store/page7.html
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I had lunch with an editor today who asked me what I get out my blog. Ask not what your country can do for you. What do I get out of my blog? Lots of tickets to movie screenings. Suitors. Bracelets. Vajazzle kit. New clients. Hate mail. I get invitations to dinner parties, cocktail parties, birthday parties and book parties. I get duck eggs delivered to my door. What do I get out of my blog? June, July, August. I get phoney phone calls and parlor games. I get to feel the heat of ten thousand wings beating. The smooth underside of dog’s belly. I get a horse and carriage. What do I get out of my blog?
Editing is still the love of my life. It’s like working on a 3,000 piece jigsaw puzzle. You start with the border. You follow the patterns, each piece locks into the next. Crappy simile aspiring to be a metaphor. Drew Barrymore on Colbert. She is so completely adorable. What the fuck is she wearing? I think I’m winding down, guys. The tank is empty. Ha ha. My business partner calls me The Tank, and I see myself rolling across the desert, squashing a gila monster. I think I have to go back to reading before I go to sleep instead of tap dancing. My husband is quietly snoring, a Geoff Dyer book splayed open on his chest. I will take it off and mark his page, turn out the light.
When I finished teaching and got on the plane to come home, I fell into a deep sleep. On the drive home various moments from the day sifted back to me. The woman in a white sweater taking copious notes. The young man behind orange tinted glasses with a strange story about a ghost. The man in blue denim shirt in the front row who never spoke. The woman with black hair and a distinctive part and nose earring, whose questions were sharp and pointed, and I nicknamed her Dragon Tattoo.
First of all, I’m in Texas so all bets are off. Tomorrow, I crush the hopes and dreams of some forty graduate students and creative writers. And who said being an agent isn’t fun? Plus, I’m writing from a room that could double as Gertrude’s bedroom for the wine-colored drapes that hang from ceiling to floor and whose folds doubtless harbor a murderer.
Dear Betsy,
Twenty-six years ago on a freezing day in late January, I checked myself into a hospital. All I had with me to read was a Robert Frost poem folded into my pocket, given to me by Richard Howard, my beloved poetry teacher. I was long out of the practice of memorizing poems, but I memorized this one as I waited the long and terrifying hours until I was admitted. And I read it over and over again. In the hospital library I would find three other books that would keep me company during my long stay: Don Quixote, Middlemarch, and August. But it was that poem that kept me alive.
A very wise and generous person read my script and had the following insight about my so called unlikeable main character. He said that it wasn’t really his story and that the emphasis was misguided. In fact, I had started the movie with him and it’s really about the female lead. Start with her. He thought the character was fine, he needed to be minimized, co-opted differently. In all my years of editing authors, I had never proposed an insight like this. It was a lightening bolt and I’ve been re-writing like a mother fucker ever since. I’m talking like the old days getting up at five and keeping at it until my back cries for mercy. Other readers helped me kiss good bye some awful flashbacks, and quash some really stupid scenes. And I’m told Goth is out. Good to know.
Do you read the Garnet Hill catalogue and think your life might be nice if you were the one really pretty teacher in a large public school? Are you lying to yourself about your desire for fame? Did you remember your father’s birthday, now seven years gone? Are you constantly hungry? Do you think you saw Paul Mckenna and realized it wasn’t Paul McKenna and tried to recall what did or didn’t happen with Paul all those years ago. A Lean Cuisine and a wank. And always the city with her anonymous embrace. All the faces you can’t recall, and then a line of young children in bright puffy jackets holding on to loops on a rope so as not to get lost. Cue danger. Stop crying. This is your brain not on drugs. This is your beautiful house. Do not write this down unless you want to forget. 
Betsy Lerner 